As in "off." I'm being laid off. How freaking weird is that?!?! It all started to hit about a month ago, and it will go on for about another month. But, after nearly a year of asking for direction and pointing out that they weren't letting me do what I was hired to do, the Powers That Be came to the conclusion that they want to go with an Events model instead of Other Fundraising. And, needless to say, I don't ever want to do another event with this organization. The anti-sugar thing was a huge hit BTW, but for the first time, I didn't feel great when it was over. Just felt dread that we were already working on the next one.
So, Sayonara and a severance package. I'm working from home for a bit, and trying to shake the fact that I was the person who told Board members about my departure and the new strategy. Shouldn't the Boss have done that? Should something as big as a change in strategy come as a surprise in a farewell call? I have seen some strange things in this job, but the last week really took the no-sugar cake. It was biz-zah.
I've been laid off before, and I am not someone who handles a lack of employment well. I tend to fall into a pool of deep dispair for no good reason. Even now, I should be working on stuff for the office, or I should be cleaning my house, and I should be posting my resume. Instead I'm fantasizing about grocery shopping for my new grill pan. On the couch. In my PJs. Not good - time for a shower and a to do list.
There have been a lot of things I've liked about this job, and many, many, many that made me very nervous. But, for now I want to list my top 5 moments of clarity. I realize that they are only funny to me.
1. Total cost of renting a giraffe for your party in Manhattan = $15,000
2. I must work with other fundraisers, and never to talk to lawyers, auditors and accountants again.
3. Business Peppy is a way of life.
4. I am a manipulative person and that's the business that I'm in. Time to get over the Baptist guilt and accept that.
5. I am not crazy. And people who nap on the floor of an office need more oversight.
Off to shower and pack away the detritus of my office clean out. Officially, I'm still there for another month. To celebrate, the office decided to take me out for BBQ and margaritas and not invite the Boss. I am the only one who feels weird about this.
XOXO, M
1 comment:
Good riddance to the directionless, giraffe-hiring, office-napping, unprofessional, irrational, ladies-who-lunch bunch of them!! You deserve to work in a place where you're the crazy one. Seriously. You have professional skills that were never used that could do a lot of good in the right place. Just a matter of finding it. This whole thing is way more silver lining than cloud. Wohoo! (Is this working? I believe every word I'm saying. I just want to make sure you do too.)
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